First of all, this is life changing course! I am exited to see what I need to improve on and make a personal improvement plan, both personal and professional. Also, this course is making me aware of how much I don't know myself. As regular critical care nurse, not once do I remember taking the time to look at myself; I was too busy taking care of patients, patient's family member, and their friends. Besides being a critical care nurse, I have the opportunity to work as nurse in the pre-hospital setting ( emergency medical services, outside the hospital setting) and again looking at myself was not the focus of my job. My job as a pre-hospital provider was to quickly bring and apply my knowledge and medical skills to make a positive difference in people's life. As a flight nurse I was too busy looking out for safety and the safety on others around me! Also, in my childhood days, growing up, I don't remember looking at me, I just remember being too busy taking care of my siblings; I was the oldest child with 5 siblings under me. I don't remember having time or a mindset to look at me. I was too busy surviving. Now teaching and going through this training is making me look at myself; I can say that some areas of my life are emotionally very painful because I did't realized how deprived I was as child for from parents attention. Going through this training is making me look at myself and this self awareness is touching on very deep emotional wounds. At the same time, I am glad to revisit this old and hidden emotional wounds so I can start my emotional healing path.
